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Jeremy: I didn’t find this place on purpose. I didn’t go looking for something like this. I don’t run. You know that. I just … I needed a place where I could look up and see. I figured that if I had a place, this place, I could just retreat when I wanted. I didn’t want to show anybody or share anything. But then Chloe came along, and I think she made me forget, a little. I wanted to play again. I’d missed that.I  think I wanted you to drive again because I can’t make you play with me. I can’t try and get you to come out of your shell any other way. We don’t have very many physical avenues that we share. This past week’s been … normal. It’s been normal, like it was before. I miss that. I’m not stupid. I know that there’s been … that everything’s changed. But I guess I didn’t want it to be that things with us had changed, too. And if you drove, then maybe … maybe that’d show me that you were still okay, despite everything.
Auden: I don’t know how to get past this. I keep questioning everything. I don’t know what the point is anymore. And I don’t want you to leave, but I don’t know how to be okay enough to make you stay. To make it normal so it doesn’t seem like things with us have changed so much, you know? I want to be able to just - I don’t know - get in the car and drive down to Wal-Mart and have everything be fine. It should be fine. It should be easy, and it isn’t. I just don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this - pretending that everything’s great and normal when it isn’t. But I don’t know what else to do.
Jeremy: I don’t want you to pretend everything’s fine when it isn’t. I don’t need that from you, I don’t need you to lie. And I don’t need it to be okay if it’s not okay. I wasn’t okay and you let me not be okay, remember? You didn’t let me lie and pretend it was fine when it wasn’t. I am not going anywhere. You don’t have to be okay for me. I’m not going anywhere regardless. I promise.